Maybe Baby?

So yesterday at approximately 9:30 a.m. we had our insemination! It wasn't what I expected really. While in the waiting room we sent my BFF and our son to get Starbucks and they waited in the car for the remainder of the time and played games. I was very nervous at first, and well D not really nervous at all. The entire time she was being so so loving, she was kissing me, hugging me, and telling me how much she loved me. It was really special. When they lady came in I let her know it was my first time with an IUI, and she encouraged me not to worry.

I think the scariest part was the look of the catheter, and in the end it didn't even really hurt. She said our sperm count was 100 million, and the motility was 79 %, she said those were pretty good numbers, and that our chances of conception were good, we had numbers on our side, as well as age, and health, which was good to know. So after the lay down period we got into the car and of course I decided to put my legs way up again ni the truck, I do know there is no clinical data showing that anything more than 15 min helps but it made me feel better so I did it.

Now what I am struggling most with is the 2WW! Who can wait 2 whole weeks when you want something so bad!! I prayed last night, hoping that God will hear me and help us. All of our friends say they can't think of anyone who deserves it more, but in my eyes there are people. I look at every little flaw and think that could be the reason why it doesn't happen. I need to stay positive.

We are having tons of problems with D's mother accepting this, she is livid that the baby will not be biologically part of their family and cannot see past it. Most people would love a baby regardless of bio or not but her she is a bit on the crazy side!! It's really heartbreaking for D and makes me feel like shit, that my mother in law wants no part of our lives as long as there's gay involved. :(

And we are off!

So we are getting ready to leave for our IUI! I couldn't sleep last night at all, i am not nervous I am just really excited and hopeful. I hope it all goes well, I must admit I am a little bit nervous of the catheter :(
Well wish me luck and babies!!!

The big day!

So I am on day 15 of my cycle today, and tomorrow is the big day! Our appointment is at 9 A.M. We couldn’t be happier, or more hopeful than we are right now. I took Clomid day 5 through 9 of my cycle, 100 milligrams a day, and boy was that an experience! I felt like I could explode at any minute and it was mainly on my partner! Ha, she hated it!
I feel so much better at this phase of the process because at first I felt so incredibily lost and without anyone to guide us in the right direction. We live in such a small town that there aren’t alot of people who have experienced the same thing. Once we found a Dr. who was willing to work with lesbians trying to conceive, the processs seemed a little easier since we had someone to answer all of our questions.
The Dr. is about an hour away, but the staff there is so great! They have helped us so much and are always so supportive. Yesterday we had our first ultrasound to check my follicle, I had a really good one on the left side and none on the right. The left side was at 26 if I remember correctly. So they told us to inject the ovidril at exactly 7:30 p.m. last night and so we did!
I was very apprehensive since D hates needles, and I could never give myself a shot. The best part was having my best friend there too, she took pictures and did whatever we needed, and it felt so great having her there since she means so much to myself and my family. I really wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. So D got up the courage and made sure she wasn’t going to pass out and gave me the shot about an inch beneath my belly button.
The shot didn’t hurt at all really, just a little stinging! I’ll tell you what did hurt is the ultrasound they did earlier that day!! It felt like they pushed my ovary into a place it wasn’t supposed to go! Ok anyway, this morning I took an OPK and there was no LH surge so I don’t know if it is the ovidrel or the clomid or maybe it was a short LH surge? I am going to call my Dr. and ask today.
So cross your fingers everyone for tomorrow!!!! Look at D’s expression in these pics, it is really pretty funny! :)

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